End of 2010 ... OMG ... what have I done ??!!?

End of last year, I set the target for this year ... think somebody may do like this too every year.

And in the end, I did nothing ... OMG one year already past but still nothing ...

may be should be learn from the book that I learn : When still young, try your best, do no waste your time or regret at last.

May be get a new job at the other place after resign.

But need keep money first ... 

I was reluctant to leave her ...

Ignore it all !!! I want upgrade myself again in the future ~~!!! that's all ~~

wrong !!!

If any body watch a series comedy named "The Big Bang Theory", a character in this comedy named Sheldon is a genius physicist.
He always anwser any question with from the angle of science, so his room mate or friends all very fear of him to make any crazy trouble with his "theory" explaination ...... is bother ...

One of my colleague is the person like that, he knows many things ... knowledgeable ... but use on the wrong place ... i'm very dissapointed with asking he a stupid question scene i m confused about my future ...
"How to improve my confidence har ?"
and then I hear many-many of examples only but no the option to solve my problem ...
I m very timid ...

I need a lot of courage !!!

Anybody can help me ?

Tronoh, the village of movie's "Ice Kacang Puppy Love (初恋红豆冰)" background.

I'm start driving around 4:30am morning on Wednesday.

After Juru tol, Bukit Merah rest area less of selling food ... cause of Puasa now ... ok nevermind I buy Gardinie bun at Esso. And then continue driving ... after tunnel I almost feel into sleep because of slowly driving when climbing hill with my old car.

Until the Tol again and out to Ipoh north exit, the sky still dark, it;s 6 am.

I start driving through the old highway, and cross many of small town area.
I see many of parent bring their child to school by motobike.

After crossing a place called "Pusing", I saw the signboard with the text "Tronoh" and with arrow that turn right, I feel little bit success, "yes! I found it!".

I though Tronoh os big and hard to find the place, but when I enter the main street is just straight, and I very easy find it for just 1 minute after driving in.

The old buiding wall, the old street, and the cafe shop that's all are very village feel, and the others car are drive slowly.

A peaceful feeling village

The wall that always seem in the movie

A old bus station symbol plate behind the cafe shop, it's still working?

Less vehicles and very quite village

I parking my car in front a empty shop, it's opposite the cafe shop in the movie.
I started take photo around the place by walking around.

After that, I buy go into the cafe shop buy 2 chinese BAO(bun) with the boss, and ask him is here the place that last time "Aniu" came here take this cafe shop as background of movie, the boss says that it's already last year, there take this place around 14 days for movies shooting.

And after that the Boss says that before me, already got people from Penang came here visit his shop, and some of them come with group by group. And the boss ask me why me just alone? I think i will bring my lover if she like but now I'm single ... @#$%& ...

After get aprove from boss to shooting photo inside the cafe shop, I start to find the every intresting corner which happen in the movie. The boss looks like know using digital camera, he ask me about ISO ... wow ... and he say he search 2 peoples facebook that uploads the photo of his cafe shop ... woooow ...
In the end I catch a photo for boss in front the counter.

 The cafe shop

The movie poster with signature of "Aniu" and other actors.

This part of table beside window have the funny story in the movie.

This is the staircase that Gary fall down, XD ...

That's me ^^

The place for brew coffee

He is the owner of this Shop ... aiya! forgot ask him Mr ?

When I went out from cafe shop, I see the sun going up, feel that after this will be a nice weather whole day ... so I start continue my journey to Batu Gajah and Kellie Castle ... to be continue ^^

need improve myself ^^

I suddenly realize need to improve my life expierience.

So I decided to clear my leaves and take sometime to travel around Malaysia.

Will borrow my small brother Nikon D3000 and bring also my LOMOcam catch photo there.

After national day, is the begin of the travel. ...... coming soon.

Lomo 1st negetive film ... start ~

The first time of using lomo camera starting with negetive film KODAK ColorPlus ISO200.

so this is some of more nicely photo that I choose for show out for my first shooting.

Very confuse about my future ......

Just like lost target, I totally don't know what should I do ...
Am I just can do the same job always and get the fix salary ???
Am I need to take a new course for future others job？ SHIT I can't study more already I feel.
...... and always balik rumah goyang kaki after work ... ? everyday like this ? ... damn it so boring ...
I want do something new ...... but when I think something new will hold by money problem ...
God help me get an best idea for my future ...... ~~~~~~~~

YES! finally I get my first LOMO camera !!!

It is very cute and small and light weight from any camera because it is to special design and create by plastic 90% i think ...

Designed by Japan ... but sure lah ... under the box still write "made in China" because many Japan production set up factory at China.

The name of my LOMO cam called BLACKBIRD,FLY~
It's a famous style of camera whose history stretches back to the 1920s.
Twin-lens at front and using it by just look down ... so diffrent ~~

Lazy to take photo for it and will put it up next post ~
product photo from other website : (hehehe)

For any infomation of this camera here is the website ^^
http://www.superheadz.com/bbf/

crazy facebook ... ???lalalala ...... =.+||

some people say me crazy with facebook ... erm ... i think ok nia lah ...
I think other people more crazy than me that everyday everytime every minutes also thinking about facebook wherever any location there are.
As someone got laptop is more easy to open facebook at outdoor and also as i know mobile facebook ??? <-- (forget the name ,some meaning of this lah ..)
If wanna talk about what comment about facebook for me ?
My anwser is facebook is somekind of connecting our friends with all the time although no need go out. Its a bit lazy for someone who knows as game kaki.
As facebook's games, I started play with pet society, restaurant city, farm ville, my empire and frontier ville ... although it is a simple or small game but its also connected friends to help each others. I know it is fun playing online games with friend but too many games playing together will wasting time after work ...(for me lah).
my colleague really crazy with facebook games only but does't use the facebook main function (sharing bla bla bla thing)...... =.=||
Even if i know it is wasting time but i still on going with 3 main games that will no taking too much time such as restaurant city, farm ville and frontier ville.
lalala ...... my gundam model still got lot to do but lazy and focus on playing computer games ... shit ~ I need throw away lazy worm and more active outdoor ~ !

I dream after 10 years

 Some virus will affect whole world while Malaysia going to Wawasan 2020.

That is a bad year, it won't be happy future if my dream became true.

Sad story

Plan to resign, run away from this shit job.

Run away from trouble, I just don't want to waste my time.

I starter feel times getting fast year by year.

Best wishes for myself,

Pls don't died in that virus future.

我很废

不知道是不是我被另一个曾经废过的人影响，导致我现在总觉得自己很超级废。
对陌生人的面对态度变得胆小了。
我很想轻松过日子，就算是普通工作过日子。
现在有个每天都让我过得很不自然的包袱，都不知道该如何放下来，如果贸然的放下来，又不知道会发生什么事。
最近，总觉得，呆在公司还比较开心。
我有点后悔选择了这条路，浪费了很多时间在不实际的事情上，虽然有一些是好的回忆，但是浪费的地方太多，跟我当初想的完全面目全非。
现在过日子就像开着水的水龙头，就让它流个不停然后一直找不到开关在那里 ...

希望我盼望的日子可以逐渐的实现，实在是不敢那么贪心一次过来到完。

Respect to the old

Today, I found that I admire for the elderly.
A old cleaner that work at my company (Indian) come back work after she took a long vacation of sick (I guess, I m no sure).
She really dedicated for her job, she say that the temporarily cleaner no really clean up our working enviroment.The temporarily cleaner are young and I remember got 1 of them body odor make people vomit ...=..=


My grandmother are very good temper, even who did something wrong she also never scold anyone and forgive them.
I love my grandmother when I still small until now. And I m the 1st grandson of her. Now she stay at my home with my Mom and Dad at night only because we had to take care of her, she is already 79 years old this year.
When I get back to my home she will like to tell me some story of the pass like the part of world war and story of my father still young. I m enjoy with the story while my mother feel boring but me not, I just want try to understand my grandmother more.

My maternal grandmother live at a village of fisherman.
She looks so strong when she take care of nine children grow up (include my Mom).
My grandfather is a fisherman when young (already pass away), there 2 support the big family until the end. I m very proud of them.
Grandmother love every grandson, she also worried every son and daughter who live at other state and seldom visit her.
Grandmother smile are very nice looking like briliant (describe in chinese =.=).
Everytime I visit her she will welcome us with the briliant smile that I like. (Chinese like to say: smile until see the teeth could no see the eye ^^)
And everytime we visit we will get some sea stuff that she order for us.

 My maternal grandmother say goodbye with 

my family when 2nd day of CNY 2010

Respect to the old person, whatever who did no had blood link with you , there are more life experience than you.

Please don hate me ......

Suddenly I really-really wanna go back the past that I regret.

I m very afraid of my friends ... or either somebody who know about me ... hate me!

I m very sad that I suddenly know someone hate me (I think) in the past and now I know it.

Last week I recieved a message from Facebook, a friend that I could no imagine that she will initiative add me.

I very suprise that she live a message that she say she really hate me long time ago but now not. I m really very happy to hear that.

About my Ex-girl friend, I also very afraid for her hate me until now.

I think will be friends after break up ... but seems she does no ...

She suddenly delete me in FB acc ...... I don't know why, is it she hate me again?

I am very upset, don't know why I still take care about she ...... shit!!!

I am so hard to throw away ... shit shit shit !!!

Yesterday when I drive through many place that got the memories with her, I m very suprise that why I still remember so clear ...

I cannot go to BM already ... shit! Everytime I cross BM my mind will replay the scene from the past with her ......

Is it better that I going to other place to get a new life ... ?

Bitter melon ~~~

Is very weird that I suddenly write a blog with the food that I don't like.
YA! Is Bitter melon !!! Now are growing  very lush beside my house!
Accually I just don't like the taste when it's already cook with egg and put on table as main food eat with rice.
I just like this kind of plant! It grow up quickly and very powerfull with climbing up around and " attack" others plant by wrap around their body ...... Invincible!
A flower grow before the bitter melon are beautiful and very robust.
Here come the image that I take for my bitter melon's flower~

I like this type of combination in plant ... ^^

Wall paint

End of last year, I create something in my house.
My father whim that want make something different in our house for Chinese New Year.
So that I propose an idea that I learn from working experience.
I took a ladder climb up and brush ... brush ... brush ...
Spend time 5 hours +

Result:

 When I finish it is already dark outside ...

And more with some deco ... (XD)

 My sister online with my WALL ... XD

 My little brother jump over my WALL ... XD

 

That's all ... XDXDXD

Last chrismas

Last chrismas is the most boring chrismas that I have in my life.
That day I just sit at home watch computer and playing the old "siez siez" game ...

NO PROGRAM lah ......

Even chrismas pun I no back to hometown ... cuz I can bet my hometown more boring than here.

A deco style chrismas tree under a hot blue sky in front GAMA, Penang.

Even is chrismas, western country are winter, BUT HOW DARE here hot as boil water ...

anxious with finding girl friend ...

 Penang Hard Rock hotel

Last year September when got a free weekend, I took a look for a new opening hotel at Penang, it's Hard Rock hotel there, nice place for a couple come here to bring up mood.

When I walk over seaside, a beautiful sunset make me stay over there for a while, and I can see a couple playing parachute together.

I fell into an illusion for a while ... (XD) and I wake up from fantasy and take a photo, but sun already goes down ...... how could ...

 seaside sun goes down

I feel envy, but I think I still unable to take care girl friend, a very pain lesson already learn long time ago that I cannot get a girl friend simply. I must have some achievement to make me more confidence to be a girl's nice man.

Take photo ah ... pity that I more like Lomo style ...

Also pity that I still keep money for purchase a lomo camera, favourite lomo such as LC-A, Diana-F or Blackbird are my lovely stuff and effects.

Before get a Lomo cam, what I have is just a camera lens build in cell phone, how poor do I ... muahahaha ... [crazy], just ... learning snap photo by using it, already the best for me, 3.1 megapixels ... no bad la ...

Start my journey with this long period NON-active blog

Since 2007 I create this blog as my place for share anything meet in my life.
But I almost forget this nice blog system as my web HOME.
2010, now start with MAY, still fresh to write anything new, maybe I will bring back old thing to share over here.

Enjoy~