Worry about our world, our future, everything getting worst

The current situation on this days, everything happen on this world are getting worst.

I m very hurt when I read about the news happen in London, 3 kids pass away because of crazy killer.

This make me remember every news in the pass about kids pass away because of crazy human.

I use to be no any feeling about kids, but now days I changed.

Just because now days living with a kid in my house, my niece.

She just 4 years old when I m writing this.

Somehow read a lot kids incident news, I keep worry on her everything.

She quite love to play with me, sometime quite annoying me but still, she just a kid.

Alright

Move on another worst thing I worry about.

War.

I know that is far from my place, but this actually affect a lot this world on finance and economy.

I quite worry about my income, I still need pay loan on my house.

No matter Ukraine vs Russia, or Palestine vs Israel, I just hope them stop.

Those innocent people are getting killed everyday.

Let those soldier home sweat home.

Politics are dirty, we don't need jump in the mud pool with those dirty politician.

Everyone need live peacefully.

Somehow I m get rid of religion.

I believe mostly people didn't totally understand their own religion.

There just believe those invisible power of their own religion can help them get rid of everything worst. But for me, I m just believe in myself, or learning from relationship.

I hold my destiny by myself, I responsibility on every decision I made.

No more blame everything no more OMG.

Just try to solve the problem ASAP once shits happen.

Just because I feel, religion cause lot of worst thing happen in history.

I still have hope for this world.

Hope for world peace.

The local KFC may disappear in future

 I can't really say I love to eat Kentucky Fried Chicken, but is really worth to taste.

Fried chicken actually is not a food for everyday.

But for party or somehow celebrate something or some special moment, I might choose bucket of fried chicken from KFC.

Also, KFC is my first ever fast food in my life, I still remember in day of 1990, I having dinner in KFC for the first time.

But in this year, our country had some activities that boycott everything from USA, almost half year this happen and still hot situation.

However some merchant immediately respond  to have more promotion and change their path to survive in this situation.

KFC actually facing some problem of management several years, so the quite late make respond on this situation and facing critical finance problem, currently already shutdown lot of franchise branch.

Luckily, the most nearby my house KFC still survive, I decided to have some support on weekend that having my lunch takeaway.

I can't predict the future, I don't know how long KFC will survive in Malaysia, so I should cherish while KFC still they.

Sad.

Hope everything get well, NO WAR, WORLD PEACE.

Waiting my take away in weekend morning

This order machine just added currently

Fried chicken, wraps, burgers, some drinks ...

2024 is a super busy year, late update

 Yes, just beginning of 2024, I keep work overtime many weeks until May.

This make me feel that 2024 just speed up time flow.

Just in a blink of an eye, almost half year pass.

I think, as elder as my ages, this much obvious feel.

Just Chinese New Year,  my old high school classmate had pass away, Rest in peace lady .

I started think about my life, how much time I left.

But after this I keep busy with a bunch of work task and didn't think about that negative thought.

Sometime, keep busy is just a kind of pull everything back to my normal path.

Also, because I keep busy, I still unable to move in my new house.

Didn't have much time to tidy up and arrange everything of my new house.

Oh ya, just beginning of May, one of my colleague resign, she had been work in this company for 10 years, this is just surprising and some sort of sad for us, after this our work will much more busier.

I really hope to have a holiday, but I can't run away from my responsibility think.

That's bad.

Today I hurt my knee while repairing my leaking roof.

Also I just build up my solid wood bed rack, that is nice, I love solid wood furniture.

Hope I can move in this year, hope......

I hope I still able to write anything after this ......

That's all

Left a note in last day of 2023

 Finally, the last day of 2023.

Conclusion of this year: I m lazy, my body get worst, lack of exercise , didn't get more income this year.

And again, I got 2nd time covid19 this year, feel worst that week.

My new  house still not move in yet.

My new house kitchen still raw yet.

Everything is getting expensive.

But income didn't increase much.

I drink a lot tea this year than coffee, I think this is good.

I buy a lot of cups and mugs this year, feel like I got new hobby that collect cups.

I more enjoy every entertainment this year than working freelance.

That's mean I spend more than earn.

May be I feel too stress.

Some sort of stress that almost getting 40 ?

I don't know, but I try to do better everything, include my life.

But this world is not that simple.

Hope everything get well in 2024.

That's all. 😁

After left this note, just realize the sky is gotta rain I should go get my bed sheet inside.

Death topic keep show up to me this few years

 I keep facing the death, relative elder death, old friends death, same age celebrity's death ...

I keep thinking about what happen after the end of me.

I keep thinking, nothing left after I gone.

No any prove that I existed.

When I gone, how about my collection stuff ?

When I gone, my precious memories all gone ?

When I gone, any relative will miss me ?

I started think I might left something, perhaps like some life photo, some notes, some memories notes.

I know as a human being, getting old will make u forget everything.

So I started to plan, I will write down my whole life memories as much as possible, at here, this platform.

Even there is no any visitor here.

But at least I left something on internet database.

I think I might write from my earliest memory as I can remember.

I have lot of awkward childhood memories, this might became my book title if I wish.

Some share memories with sibling, sister, brothers, they might already forgot but I still remember some details while play with them in childhood times.

What a good memories even there is some bad thing happen sometimes.

At the end, I will say I might became lazy again about this plan.

But I try to write it down as much as I can, for real.

Good luck for everyone who work hard for better life.

Oh ya, my English actually no that good for describe some details, so I will write in Chinese.

Probably next month will done chapter 1, or may be prologue ...

See ya.

Grandma & me at Kampung Baru, town of Lunas, Kedah state, Malaysia

(Photo taken in 1987)

Stress, on everything, real bad time

I m currently drop into a trap that trying to get out from this mess.

I m fear about marriage, I m confuse that did I really want to marry her ?

I m fear that if I marry her will cause a lot of problem with my family ? Especially my mom ?

She didn't care a lot my family connection.

I m confuse when my mom force me to marry her ASAP and this really make me gloomy.

I started to doubt myself if this was what I wanted.

I don’t even know why I have self-doubt like this situation.

I started worry everything.

I got little health problem right now.

My heart keep feels uncomfortable sometimes.

I afraid of noisy human sound.

I wish to have a completely silent place to stay.

I started fear if I really have capability to done my house loan.

She didn't make any help on my house loan.

I keep thinking of death topic every morning when I wake up.

What will happen if I suddenly disappear from this world ?
I think might no body care, I m nobody.

I sad, I have no best friends to talk to.

I have some friends, but I fear to show naked of my heart to them.

When I realize, there is already build up huge wall stuck myself inside.

I don't know how to break that wall.

I m hard to believe in human.

I m so hard to say I m sick inside.

What can I do is just empty my brain every morning.

I don't want listen any content when I drive to work.

I look up the clear sky, I free up my mind.

I need some real rest, without any disturb.

I hope I would free my mind in future.

 I love look up the clear sky every morning when I walk to my car that ready drive to office

After release from lockdown covid19, first little trip

On September I went to a town in middle of the west Malaysia called Taiping.

As I know this is a city named under Chinese word, it means "peaceful".

Taiping is a place that we call "Rain city", because this is the place that keep raining and make it most rain fall city in Malaysia.

As you can see the first photo, since I reach hotel, the sky looks ready to rain after this.

Quick snap from hotel room balcony.

I went Taiping together with my dad and mom, with my brother.

We went to the famous spot of Taiping called Taiping Lake Garden.

Even I visited this place when I was kid several times, now days pay a visit as a 30+ mature man, that really different feeling.

Those rain trees getting bigger so much and became nature art branch.

The temperature is comfort, around 24 degree celsius.

I walk around and getting little rain when I snap some photo.

Big rain trees beside Taiping Lake walkpath

Taiping Lake, a bridge across it.

Some how those rain trees look thirsty

We came here also for a wedding dinner somewhere near the lake.

Just a little short trip on weekend, I didn't take extra leave on work.

Head home on next day morning after breakfast.

Actually is just 1 hour 30 minutes drive time from my house.

Is good to have a weekend relax far from where we live.

Hope for next time.